Thursday, February 20, 2014

come up for air

so i guess it'd be a good idea to not let february go by without writing anything, huh?

it's not like anything catastrophic has happened in my life recently; i just don't have anything blogworthy to write about, i suppose. and so i apologize if any of you have been worried by my absence -- it hasn't been intentional. it's probably more accurate to say that i have tons i could write about but shouldn't, and so i try to choose my words a little more carefully when i actually do write. because the internet never forgets, or something. (i keep expecting my old geocities site - yes, i had one - to pop up here at some point. oh, god.)

but by far the highlight of my life from the last few weeks was the two stints of cat-sitting for friends -- the first one involving living at my friends' lovely house in the east end for about a week and looking after this sweet furmonster:

zoso! (yes, she's named after the led zeppelin album nickname)

zoso is a good kitty. she likes human company and will mostly just come and sit near you. when you get up in the morning, it's not food she wants -- it's belly rubs and attention. so it definitely wasn't a hassle to stay with her for a few days and let her sleep on my head. big fuzzy purr machine.

then a few days later, i got to stop in and check up on these handsome boys -- victor (gray & white) and larp (half-siamese):

these two were definitely lower maintenance, but they still required food/water refills while their owner was away, and i took an hour to give them some cuddles and play time as well. there's nothing i love more than a happy chatty kitty. (my old tomcat, mr. gray, was the most talkative cat i've ever known. i used to have whole conversations with him, which probably means i'm further along the line towards crazy cat lady than anyone originally thought.)

just listen to this cat, oh my god:

tons of my friends ask me why i don't get a cat of my own if i love them so much (honestly, they brighten my life like nothing else). two reasons: i'm too poor, and i don't think i have enough space. i know both of these reasons are surmountable if i was really determined (i could find the money somehow; i could raise a kitten to be okay with the small space afforded by a junior one-bedroom apartment)

also, i've tried to puzzle out where i could put a litter box to be both accessible and unobtrusive, and nothing works. i'm not ashamed to admit that i like a clean, non-smelly living space. also i really like this goddamn plant and it cost me $50 but it's deadly to cats and i don't want to get rid of it:

also nicknamed "the beast", because for one it's enormous and for two it's a pothos vine that's sometimes called "devil's ivy" (its botanical subfamily name is monsteroideae, which is fucking amazing)

i am slightly ridiculous.

otherwise, in order to cope with the rest of this long gray winter, i've been thinking about stuff i can plan that i can be excited about. boring everyday life is a little bit brighter when you have something in the near future to look forward to, right? i've become a lot more strict about budgeting - both short- and long-term - in my old age, and so i've been laying out possible plans for travel and fun stuff this year in order to figure out just what i can afford. so far, here's what i've come up with:

- april: captain america 2 opens, dad visits, possible trip to chicago for convergence
- may: canadian music week, trip to montreal, possible trip to chicago if i can't get there for convergence
- june: field trip festival, nxne
- july: possible trip to hike mont blanc in france
- august: guardians of the galaxy opens, annual summer cottage weekend with girlfriends

...and that's all i've got so far. looking any further ahead might be foolhardy since i know life can change at the drop of a hat, and i'd rather stay at least a bit flexible.

closer to home, though, i'm looking to make march 2014 one of those self-care and fix-my-dumb-life-up months. i feel like i kind of need it after spending all of january sinking half a bottle of wine every night and stewing in my own self-pity. i've been pulling myself out of that crappy mindset throughout february, so i figure march is the month when i buckle down and focus on improving things. it's not much longer til spring now, and i don't want to drag a less-than-optimal self into it. so march is going to be all about improving my health, fixing my crappy diet, trying out a new and hopefully better skin care routine, and generally trying to get to a good place with myself. this is a constant struggle of mine - and most peoples', from what i've heard - but i don't want to go into my 31st year being a pathetic sadass about everything. i've got my health and a roof over my head and family & friends that love me, and i think i'm generally an okay person, so i need to focus more on the positives and less on the negatives. not to sound too much like a hockey-player interview or anything.

speaking of hockey, fuck yes canadian women's hockey team! please, please win tomorrow, canadian men's hockey team. this is our national livelihood at stake. sorry phil, i still love you.

[ music | cold war kids, "miracle mile" ]